I looked at Tessy, beautiful Tessy. Her lovely large Chinese eyes with eyeballs as white as snow. I nicknamed her Milkeyes as her eyes reminded me of the television advert of a popular evaporated milk. The first day I came to this compound, and lay my eyes on her, I knew I was in for big trouble, as she was capable of letting my weakness surface again. I had been running from this demon that has been chasing me from place to place, but always seemed to have the upper hand.
The first time I saw Milkeyes, I shivered as I became hard down there. She walked past me with her friends and smiled sweetly at me. I smiled back and she waved innocently. If only she knew what I was thinking, she would have run far far away. I instantly checked myself. No, my demons would not take over. Not this time!
The next week, I saw Milkeyes, she hugged me so tight. Gosh, she is very friendly, in fact, too friendly. Didn’t her mother tell her about the world and the wicked people in it? She kept holding my hands. She had just lost a tooth. The wide space in her dentition seemed to attract me further. I pulled her closer to me, hugged her very tight, and tickled her underarms. She responded with loud innocent chuckles which turned me on.
Over the months, Milkeyes and I became close, almost inseparable. She trusted me and told me about all her friends. I told her about my work. She could not be muted as her curiosity was insatiable. “What is this, what about this?” She always asked. Damn, she could never stop. She was such a smart lass, and always had a comeback for everything I said. Well, this was what made me love people like her more.
One fateful day, I heard a light knock on my door. I opened it and looked down, and there was my beautiful Milkeyes, with her white eyeballs staring at me sheepishly. The gap in her dentition was beginning to be replaced by another tooth half in size when compared to its surrounding companions. The pink Alice band and colourful accessories adorning her hair was in a class of its own. Oh, what a sight to behold! She was as excited to see me as I was to see her. Quickly I pulled her in through the door, passed my balcony and locked my sliding glass.
And then, just like that, BAM! He took over. I tossed Milkeyes on the bed, covered her mouth and ran my fingers all over her, every single part of her. She looked scared, I did not like her scared face so I told her it would be alright, but not before I had shouted at her to dare not make a sound. After playing with her body, I told her to touch me too, in the place where I love to be touched. I told her to play with it. At least, if I could not get any other person to touch me, I could force Milkeyes to do it.
I finally had my fill with six year old Tessy and eventually asked her why she came. With tears in her eyes, she said her mum sent her to collect my blender because hers suddenly blew up while using it. Gosh, it was an emergency! By now, her mum must have been wondering why she was taking so long. So I walked into the kitchen and gave her the blender. “If you ever tell anyone what happened today, I swear, I would kill you and your family. You don’t want to test me. Now dry up your tears, and tell your mum you had to stay long because you got carried away with the games on my new iPad.” I said to her. Tessy cleaned her tears and hurriedly ran out as I unlocked the sliding glass.
The demon left immediately she stepped out. Oh my God, what have I done? I have done it again. I did it to Tessy, my beautiful and innocent Milkeyes. She would never be innocent again. I waited anxiously that night, wondering if Tessy’s mum would badge in. Every knock on my door that evening was a source of anxiety.
One day, two days, one week, one month… no one came, no one asked anything. Life remained just the way it was before my encounter with Milkeyes. I guess my empty threats worked wonders in her mind, and I would be escaping jail one more time. I don’t know if I would be lucky next time.
I saw Tessy this afternoon. She has, for long, stopped playing with me. Her eyes doesn’t look up eagerly to me when I pass by anymore, I can’t even tell if they are still milky. I miss our times together, her innocent smiles and her never-ending questions. Our eyes suddenly locked. After few seconds that seemed like an eternity to me, she looked away to her friend and smiled. Something seemed missing from that smile… her innocence… and I was the cause of it.
She is gone. Milkeyes is gone, and left just plain Tessy behind.